Permission Granted – Banish the Guilt

Hi. Remember me? I joined Emu’s Debuts waaaay back in 2013 when my first trade book sold. My book has been delayed a few times, for reasons beyond my control. I’ve hung around long enough to sell two more books and for one of them to be delayed, too. By the time this book publishes, I will be within inches of finishing an MFA program. Such is the unpredictability of publishing. I’ve been here long enough to welcome new debuters, celebrate their launch day, and bid a sad farewell when they graduated from the “debut” stage. Yes, I’m still here. One day, I’ll have an interesting story to tell about delays and how, though disappointing, sometimes they work out for the best – as if the universe is looking out for us. That would be a great topic for this blog about the debut journey. But today I want to talk about writer guilt.

Yes, guilt. Many of us were conditioned for guilt at a very young age, but the grown-up writer version is what concerns me. Maybe it’s because I’m basically a people-pleaser. Perhaps you’re like me or know somebody like me. If anybody has a problem, I want to fix it for them. When a friend, colleague, classmate, needs help, I eagerly volunteer. I sincerely like to be helpful, and I am flattered to be asked. When I must say no, I feel badly about it. The reality is, there are times when momentum relies on tunnel vision. Thankfully, these tunnel vision times come in spurts and there is always light at the end of each tunnel. When I began an MFA program in January 2015, I was forced to be more self-indulgent and selfish about my time. Like all of you, my to-do list is very long. Sometimes, scaling back is an uncomfortable necessity. The fact is, we cannot be all things to all people all the time.

If you’re a writer or artist, I know you understand the tug-of-war of guilt that springs from dedication to the craft. We feel guilty for taking time away from family. We feel guilty that our craft does not generate enough income. We feel guilty that our homes are a mess, the car is overdue for an oil change, we haven’t moved from our workspace in days, and we don’t spend enough time with the kids. Then we feel guilty when we desperately crave some downtime away from our creative endeavors because the well runs dry and the pressure feels suffocating. It can feel like we are damned if we do work and damned if we don’t. If we were to stack up all the self-imposed guilt associated with the creative life, we could reach the Moon. Maybe a more reasonable approach is to learn to chillax about it.

When my stress level reaches a crescendo (often,) and I feel pulled in 12,000 directions, I try to ask myself a series of questions:

Who is most important in my life?

Who/what needs me the most?

Where does each demand fit in my order of priorities?

What feeds my soul?

I am still working on it, but my goal is to prioritize the to-do list and allow that to determine what I can and cannot do. I need to be kinder to myself. I hope you will be kind to yourself, too. In fact, I hereby grant us all permission to say NO when our time and energy reserves are low, or when we must enter that tunnel of concentration. Let’s do so in the name of self-care, while sending sincere good wishes to the people and events that we regretfully decline. Remember,  we need to put the oxygen mask on ourselves first.

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13 responses to “Permission Granted – Banish the Guilt

  1. I LOVE this! What an awesome concept and fabulous post! Thank you so much. This is something I’ve been working on for myself – through mindfulness. And my mindfulness teacher said something that has stuck with me – it’s not selfish when you put yourself first, it’s “Self-Love” and you can’t be good to anyone until you take care of yourself first. I try to keep that in mind and I try to banish the word “selfish” and instead replace it with self-love when I end up saying no to someone or something. Feeding our soul, particularly our creative soul, is key. So GO you and what a fantastic post! 🙂

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  2. Oh, yes, Self-love! That’s exactly what I’m talking about, Debbi. I wish I had been as articulate. You have a mindfulness teacher? I totally need to check into that.

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  3. Wonderful and wise post, Donna! My children are grown and I no longer work full-time as a freelancer, so my time is pretty much my own as well. That doesn’t let me off the “guilt” hook, though. My guilt comes from “depleted” times when I take a break from writing every day. I love the contract and will use it to enjoy a guilt-free spring vacation with my husband. 🙂


  4. Janet Fox

    So excellent, Donna. We all suffer so much from guilt and fear and depletion. Good for you tackling this ripe topic!! Many hugs and hang in there!


  5. katieslivensky

    I love this post SO much. I always feel guilty about both not spending enough time writing AND spending too much time writing! What a wacky life we lead. The permission slip is great, and so is the message behind this whole blog entry!


  6. Thank you so much for this post, Donna!It was exactly what I needed to hear after this week!


  7. Excellent post, Donna! You nailed so many of my thoughts and feelings. Thanks for the permission slip!


  8. So wise, Donna. SO wise.


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